 | Evirobie's Gallery | Feb 3, 2005 |
A nice cosy place for me to post some photos and share with the rest of you guys out there.
I realized that i am having the habit of blogging when i couldn't sleep late in the night. A lot of loose thoughts and emotions i guess. Trying to piece them together.
Stumble across a blog, or rather it was openly broadcasted on his msn nick. Being curious, i took a peep, that peep took me 3 hrs to read what happened 3 yrs ago. He was my "best friend" since secondary school days, JC, NS and till we sort of can't stand each other when we are in our university days, we were in different uni though.
Both of us are so alike and similar in many ways before. I think the blog's timeline started after we "fan lian" or pissed each other off. After reading his blog, i felt that he was a much luckier person with friends like B and E to support him during his time of needs. How envious of him I was. Looking back, I have always been a failure in friendships. I did saw my name appearing twice in this 3 yr old blog, but definitely not in the good books type. I was classified under "the one that would scold him in the back", though i think that was meant to be a joke. Just heavy feelings, after reading, like when i am chasing after D, it is in such a similar case as he was after Z. But in the whole event, I was alone, no adviser no helpers... Though i am not sure is H sq was trying to help which side, after H sq came XT too. Hai, maybe i am simply jealous or envious of him, he had B and E by his side even though he was broke and etc.
Recently, we got back into contact. We went for a basketball session together on one fine morning. There were familar faces like JL, E, and KJ, pple i knew but haben been in contact since the army days. Issit me who din take the initative to contact them, or was i left out in all cases... just an accquantance in their lives.
Lets talk about JL first, i known JL since sec1. I think we been in the same sec one class. Someone that i am very grateful too, I had an knee operation at the end of mid of sec 2 i think, got on clutches for 3 mths, all thanks to his uncle for ferrying us to school early in the morning in his cab, else i would have a big problem getting to school. But we went to the same JC, and we sort of distanced from each other, maybe it is just me.... Born loner + bummer~~~
Back to the bball session, I forgot the name the owner of the blog, i think i shall call him S bah. After a few rounds of ball games, we went for a drink and i help S to get a big bottle of 100 plus and i told him dun need to pay me the money~~~. Guess what was his first reaction, "Wow you have changed, you know how to treat pple." Well, i do have mixed feelings when i heard that, memories of secondary school days start to flow back into my mind. I admit those days I am a pretty poor kid then. Not that i would not want to treat him then, but cos I do not have the means to treat him. He was considered one of the richer kids who like want wind get wind and his mom was pampering him. Was pretty envious of him, the branded stuff he has, the toys he has. It was pure envy i guess. That moment i really do feel uncomfortable with his remarks. but i just smile back weakly i guess. Sometimes, i do wonder how well we know each other when we were close frens then. One thing for sure, he can't remember when is my birthday.
After the basketball session, me, E and S decide to go for fish head curry. We went on a fish head curry hunting trip, cos the stall shifted to somewhere at Upper Thomson near Nee Soon Camp Shell station there. On the way, i just realised seem to have distanced so much that i dun seem to understand what topic they on and what they talking about. I can only reply with a "yah", "orrr" or a "huh". I guess people would think much differently after these years of change. It seem to me the rest are maturing and moving forward, with me lagging behind or should i say i am still "yuan di ta pu", how i wish there is someone to tap me on the shoulder and pull me along.
When you trying to mend something that is broken like a friendship, would it just remind you of the scars and there seem to be a barrier that is hard to overcome, and to be friends like before. Just alot of mix feelings that i do not know how to put them into words, fragments of my thoughts.
But i did wrote something to S on msn after reading his blog.
"I backside itchy... i read through ur blog~~~"
"haaaa, wasted 3 hours of my life~~~"
Maybe i am the one that built the barrier around myself that prevented other to get to know the real me. Am I afraid of pple knowing the real me? Who and what is the real me, even i do not have the answer for myself... ... ...
 | Misc | Mar 19, '08 12:03 PM
for everyone |
|  | Shots found in my K750i and F11. |
| | Some shoots taking with my trusty Fuji F11 in "P"rofessional mode. Din take much pictures as still groggy from the 10 hour ride to Penang. |
 | I Quit | Mar 28, '07 9:40 AM
for everyone |
As the title goes...
I QUIT !!!!
Nough said.
Your Birthdate: May 27
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For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.
In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with.
You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending!
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5
You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.
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I think it was on the friday before Christmas. Was walking around SLS, ended my last day of work at AT the day before. The familar ringtone for incoming sms went off, surprised to get a sms from ZZ asking where would I be after work. I din told her before that my contract just ended the day before. Soon found out that she bought cocolat for us (the JR gang or maybe just me and dk). So sweet and nice of her, like an angel giving surprise present. (PS. I max out my quota of 1 white lie per day k).
I was going down to lakeside to get the second hand processor for my rig, but she was nice to wait for me at Woodlands Mrt Station. Actually she went to library to return the book that why she was still around the station area. Then we chat for a while and came to know she given the Champagne cocolat to DK, sad sad, so jealous, i want those too. I got petite truffles only. But was super happy, at least she remembered to get something for us. Kinda think back, i din get anything for her. Hmmmzzz.
As promised, i take some peekture of the cocolat before sending them to my tummy. So busy recently to take photos, so the cocolat end up in the fridge until today. So here are some of the louya peekture taken, no spot light, end up using the ceiling light and got quite harsh shadows.
Sweet things come in small packages (hint hint, that box too small for me lah)
Further peek inside
The real thingie.
Hmmmzzz, maybe my taste bud louya. Can only taste the peanuts, can't really feel the co co lat. Brian, stay off this. PEANUTTY.
| | Note: I am in those photos, so the photographer isn't me k. |
| | Long time never post any photos, got a new camera and was trying it out on a lonely Christmas Day.
Most of the photos are taken in ISO 800, pretty good for a compact in my own opinion. |
| | For this PLUG outing, we went to Changi Broadwalk to take some landscape and sunset photos, but then there was no sunset... End up mission failed. |
| | A series of photos taken at P. Ubin, but got no time to edit them util now. I am darn "fast", 2 mths to do up the pictures. Enjoy. |
| | Second PLUG outing, walk from taka to tanglin mall, then go SBG for shoot. |
| | If you guys are wondering what PLUG is... It is Panasonic Lumix User Group... |
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